It has been exactly 5 months since I began my life as a teacher. 5 months of constant planning, preparing, failing, falling and growing. 5 months of wonder, enjoyment, happy tears and countless memories with my first class of “Brainstormers.” It’s been an incredible ride. Yet here I sit, blogging and reflecting on my journey and this thought keeps popping in my head “the more I learn, the less I know.”
Now of course, I don’t mean this literally. I can in fact acquire and maintain knowledge and take that knowledge and turn it into some kind of product, which may prove that I have some intelligent life in my brain. What I figuratively mean by “the more I learn, the less I know” is that I have come to the conclusion that I am on an endless journey of constant betterment of self. I have no destination, no final product, just growth and perseverance.
I attended the CARA Conference over the weekend with Keynote speakers and authors Kristin Ziemke and Katie Muhartis who talk about how technology can amplify your classroom. Both Kristin and Katie were incredibly eloquent, knowledgable and down to earth speakers. They shared many insights into how technology can amplify your classroom. One of the best things that they said during the entire conference was that the best practices with technology start with their “why”. The teachers who utilize technology to the highest degree aren’t thinking about what app is the best app to teach letter sounds, their thinking about the lesson and standard they need to teach and find a way to enhance that learning with technology.
What stuck with me the most though, was that, Katie, while speaking, stated that there are still days where she feels like a failure. After all of these years as a teacher, with published books on how to become a better teacher, she still feels like a failure. It was so refreshing to hear that even unbelievably talented professionals have their days.
As a first year teacher I am constantly fighting with my inner voice questioning every day if what I am doing is “right” or “good enough”. The more I learn from others, the more ideas I receive, and the more ideas I am blessed with, the more I realize how much I truly have to learn and how much I genuinely do not know. It’s as though with every click of a link on Twitter, every search of a blog post or idea on Pinterest, there is always more to find, discover and learn about. It never, EVER ends. Hence the no destination journey I am on as an educator. I have such a passion to continue to know NOTHING and fill my brain with as much knowledge as possible. I feel so lucky to be connected with so many incredible educators who push me everyday and show me that learning never stops, it’s a never ending journey.
“The more I learn, the less I know, but the more I learn, the more I grow”, a mantra I hope all of my “marigolds” and kiddos believe for themselves.